I forgot to do this post last night, hence it going up somewhat later than usual.
I’m rather confused about my body at the moment. In case you’re wondering, no, I’m definitely straight. What I’m confused about is how come I’ve lost weight over the last week. It would seem I have a rather faster metabolism than I thought. Which isn’t a bad thing, just kind of strange. It might explain why I stopped losing weight at my previous (much lower) calorie intake and only started losing again when my intake went over 2k a day. I’m not going to question it too hard. I’m just grateful the weight is coming off. That’s fine by me.
I also realised I cannot have any gluten at all. Which is rather boring really, but hey, if that’s what it takes to be healthy and happy, then that’s what I’ll do. Getting stomach cramps and fatigue after a few biscuits (cookies to the Americans) takes all the fun out of having biscuits. Or normal bread. Or, you know, 95% of what you can buy in most supermarkets. Just got to plan my meals out a bit more. Given how I didn’t do any planning over most of the last couple of months, even a little planning will go a long way.
I haven’t been to the gym since Thursday. Thankfully my back is strong enough to handle this. Mostly. There was some sciatica last night, but it faded after a while, which I take as a good sign. The last time I had sciatica while in bed I ended up having to lie in a particular position, which wasn’t uncomfortable, but didn’t leave me any wiggle room at all. And usually I’m a wiggler, so it was annoying. The sciatica going away without having to treat my body like a tower-that-mustn’t-lean is definitely a plus.
So I remembered to buy gluten-free bread and cookies this morning. This evening I will bake some gluten-free cupcakes to take to the doghouse with me so that I’m not spending money on cookies. Which reminds me. Sod. I have to go out again to buy eggs. I’m not sure I can be bothered to move. I’ll let you know how this pans out.
I had a “moment” this morning. This is when I get annoyed about something and it makes my brain shut down. Not like going into a coma or anything. Well, actually, it is like that, but just my creative side. There I was, wanting to do some work on the book and my brain wouldn’t be creative at all. It just wouldn’t come, like someone shut the door and went to bed. Thanks a lot, Muse. Eventually I sorted the problem and my brain opened up again. It was a very neat (as in tidy, not cool) reminder that my creativity is tied to my emotions and I cannot work if I’m not calm and relaxed. And by work, I mean create. Write, plan, plot, whatever. If I’m not calm, my muse stays away.
This is a big thing for me to realise. I used to get upset about a lot of things. I used to get angry about a lot of things. Now I realise that when I react that way and can’t let go of those emotions, the only person who gets hurt is myself. Those feelings cut me off from what I do best, from the only thing I want to do. I realised this is why you should only deal with people who make you happy. Let’s face it, the source of most emotional upset is other people. So I will now make an effort only to deal with people who make me happy. I’ll have to deal with the others every now and again, but given the choice, I’ll stick to the happy-makers.
